Dying To Be Me: My Journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing
Anita Moorjani
Language: English
Pages: 216
ISBN: 1401937535
Format: PDF / Kindle (mobi) / ePub
down dramatically. This upset me, as it came unexpectedly and added to the stress and loneliness of my family leaving Hong Kong. During that period, I also often felt pressured by our community and my peers to have a child, although at that time, I was more interested in working, traveling, and exploring the world. Finally, I found freelance work for a relocation company. My responsibilities entailed helping newly arrived expatriates integrate into Hong Kong, and I enjoyed the freedom it offered,
could I cause myself this much pain? I grieved. 85 Interior Dying to be me.indd 85 11/28/11 1:10 PM dying to be me Yes, I felt as though I’d done it to myself. I reached my hand up toward the mirror, and as I touched the image of my tearful face, I made a promise that I’d never hurt myself so badly again. The doctors were being cautious about my healing, particularly because of the state I was in when I entered the hospital. They wanted to adjust the mix and dosage of the chemotherapy they
assist you in creating that reality.” It would have taken a lot longer conversation for me to say what Anita so simply and eloquently put into words. Now I see a second reason. I understand that I’m part of the process that seeks to bring Anita’s inspiring words to the entire planet. The timing was absolutely synchronous. Had that e-mail arrived any sooner, it wouldn’t have been at the forefront of my thoughts, and I wouldn’t have shared it with Wayne. Had it come later, it wouldn’t be receiving
and put us in a constant state of judgment. What we endorse is considered “good” or “positive,” and what we don’t believe in is not. This also puts us in the position of needing to defend our beliefs when others don’t agree. And when we invest too much of our energy in defense, we become reluctant to let go, even when 136 Interior Dying to be me.indd 136 11/28/11 1:10 PM Why I Got Sick . . . and Healed ideas no longer serve us. That’s when our beliefs start to own us instead of the other
condemnation, and the like are a “here” thing, not a “there” thing. That’s why we have laws, rules, and systems. On the other side, there’s total clarity about why we are the way we are and why we did anything we did, no matter how unethical it felt in life. I believe that those who hurt others only do so out of their own pain and their feelings of limitation and separation. Perpetrators of acts such as rape and murder are far removed from even having an inkling of their own magnificence. I